We have a gazillion photos of our grandbaby Amariah and we never tire of looking at them. We think everything our not quite two year old toddler does is cute and must be documented immediately so we can treasure the moment forever. Any grandparents out there who get this? I have noticed in many photos that there are feet, arms, legs or hands in the corner of the picture, proof that an adult is never far away, always watching out for her. They are watching to see that she is safe, or if she needs help zipping her jacket, or climbing the steps … or to grab the camera when she does something cute. Often she does not even need to ask, we anticipate her needs. She imitates everything we do. As I was rolling up my pant legs so I could wade in the water, I noticed her sitting on a rock struggling to roll hers up too. I stopped to help her roll them up so she could be like Oma, then I scooped her up and carried her because the water was too deep for her to wade. She is the centre of our universe. I am smitten.
In spite of a loving husband and supportive family, there have been circumstances in my life that have left me feeling totally alone. At times I felt that no one really cared for me. I believed my gifts were not needed or appreciated and I was unwanted. At one particularly low point, after a project I had poured my heart into had been rejected and discarded, it seemed like I was the one who had been discarded – demoralized and devalued. I drifted for a long time on a sea of self doubt, my confidence and self worth in my boots. I had to make the decision to stay paralyzed by Satan’s lies or reach out to God for help.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10 NIV
I struggled to reject the lies that were being whispered to me by Satan. I longed to know that God loved me and that He was pleased with me. I had to know that I had value. The enemy of our souls wants to destroy us and uses every possible circumstance to immobilize us and fill us with doubt. I searched the scriptures for the truth. God was reaching out for me long before I was reaching out for Him.
But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one. 2 Thessalonians 3:3 NIV
Indeed He was watching out for me. He revealed to me verse after verse of affirmation and His unfailing love for me. He showed me that He had a purpose for me. It was there I found the truth. His words were the snapshots that I needed to look at when I doubted. It was as if He was saying “see this one, this is the one that shows you that you are accepted and that one is a picture of how I am always with you. And see this picture; it is the most special one of all, the one where I poured out my blood for you.”
So whether we fail,
Or people fail us,
HE will never fail us!
If we could take a snapshot of all those unloved and unwanted periods in our lives, I know that we would see God standing right there, feet, arms, legs, hands in the corner of the photo ready to help the moment we needed anything. He is there before we even cry out for help, already anticipating our needs. He is always there to scoop us up in His loving arms and carry us through the deep water.
Praise the Lord; praise God our savior! For each day he carries us in his arms. Psalm 68:19 NLT
We are the centre of His universe and He is totally smitten. It is hard to comprehend that kind of love.
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! 1 John 3:1 NIV
By Cyndi den Otter (C)
August 27, 2012
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